Mark gorsuch

Ashland Undergraduate

saint fag

“Homosexual acts are intrinsically disordered. They are contrary to the natural law. [. . .] Under no circumstances can they be approved.” - The Catechism of the Catholic Church

Saint Fag, Holy Freak. Disordered ill-made 
child of God. Doubt, Despair, and Hate, 
and the greatest of these is Hate.
I hate myself, I hate the Church, I hate God.
I’m not Catholic enough, I need to go to confession. 
I’m not gay enough, I am half wrong, half right? 
Maybe I am half right, half wrong? I don’t know
I’m a monster. Some ridiculous 
Greek hybrid. Half man, half not. 
A centaur? Maybe a minotaur?
Something with wings would be cool.
I would fly the fuck away from here . . . Where shall I fly?

Infinite wrath, and infinite despair
Which is the graver sin, sodomy or suicide?
Love the sinner, hate the sin
Should I confess my impure thoughts or my open wrists?
Love the sinner, hate the sin
I wish prayer helped more, profound and intense piety. 
That’s so gay
Am I flaming? Does hell really have flames?
I hope so, I’ve felt cold
and flames might be good company.

I know I shouldn’t long for hell 
but I fear that I am already there.
This quaint little town, a stranger to tolerance, 
an adversary to acceptance
untouched by the illusion of universal progress. 
The light cannot reach me 
down in the pit. I didn’t dig the pit. 
I didn’t fall into it. I was born in it,
and I pray God may release me from it. 
I care not what form my liberation takes,
whether it be by angelic wings, or a noose.

MARK GORSUCH IS A SENIOR RELIGION MAJOR AT ASHLAND UNIVERSITY, AND IS INVOLVED WITH CATHOLIC CAMPUS MINISTRY AND EAGLES FOR PRIDE. THIS IS HIS FIRST PUBLICATION.